I did it.
I competed in my first Fitness competition.
It was a super long day - mainly because there were over 100 Bikini Competitors!!
Hahaha, soon they'll need their own night of judging!
Anyway, there were only 4 of us Fitness gals.
I placed 4th out of 4.
I expected it, but you know, it's still a teeny bit deflating.
But those gals did wonderful.
Here's a few photos.
I will let you in on a little secret.
During the morning routine/judging my music skipped like crazy.
I got a little flustered, but did my whole routine anyway.
Don't ask me how it happened, but I broke my big toe.
I think with all the adrenaline, I didn't even notice until I went to put on my heels for the 1st Posing round of judging and was all "Oooooowwwwiiiie!"
This just proves that I'm a complete and utter klutz!
Thankfully, I had extra copies of my music and they gladly exchanged out my cd.
So for the night time show, that was all good!
Now, down to the nitty gritty.
I let this all get in my head.
I thought that I wouldn't, but I did.
I began to make the "placing" a part of my self-worth.
It wasn't for very long, just one day, but I got a little cray-cray.
You see because I could not stand outside of myself and be objective.
I've only gotten one judge's feedback so far.
In all honesty, what he said was true.
But I got my panties in a bunch for about an hour and was all defensive - in my living room mind you.
Then, I realized, "I have no skills in being given constructive criticism."
It's a fault that I have to work on, especially if I want to do this more.
I have to step out of my own psyche and be honest with myself.
That's something that's very hard to do.
Lots of folks tell me that they can do that.
Yeah, I thought that I could as well ~
apparently, not so much, hahaha.
I think this part is the hardest part of competing, for me.
Of course in my head, I think this and see this:
This has all been a learning experience for me.
I'm sure that it will definitely continue to be one.
I really had no clue what I was going into or what to expect.
Now, I have a slightly better understanding.
I just have to grow with it and not let any of it stunt my evolution.
Plus, when I'm old and gray, I'll have some badass pictures to show people when I'm in the home!