So, I had been doing so well,
beginning to make some lofty goals...
Then the past five days, though I worked out hard and consistently,
I blew it.
Lots of beer, gin, wine...
some not so good food choices, hell, horrible choices.
Last night, I spent two hours fighting myself on ice cream.
I don't even like ice cream.
I went to the store, picked up a M&F Hers and two pints of ice cream.
For some reason, I am not wanting myself to succeed.
I really don't feel like I deserve to become what I have in my head and heart.
I've been in a bad headspace that I cannot seem to get out of.
I need to start writing in my paper journal again to purge the negativity that is festering.
I need to start trying not to dwell, dwell, dwell,
especially on petty things that are not worth it.
I also need to re-prioritize my life.
It's time for some changes -
changes of things that can be changed.
I'll figure it out eventually.
But I have still been going to the gym!
I haven't been posting as I should, but here's today's workout and pic.