Wednesday, 19 October 2016

You never know.

I found out today how true this is.
Something happened to me today as I was at the gym just struggling to get through my half-a$$ workout. I saw a lady, who I have passed many times since moving here. We've chatted before in restaurants or when we've seen each other out, basic pleasantries. I've always thought she was vibrant, happy, and pretty too.

Today, she was on the elliptical, I was doing a little treadmill karaoke when she approached me.
I took out my headphones, and she proceeded to compliment me on the changes I have made in the past few months. She wants to make changes too. So, we chatted. We talked about food, exercise, weights, our similar lifestyles. Our conversation went even deeper. We discussed social media, society standards and how it affects our young girls. She would like me to meet and talk to her teen daughter. We've even exchanged numbers, talked about maybe getting together to food prep, hang out and workout together.

I'm not tooting my own horn at all, but I didn't realize that I had an impact on others, or could even possibly help anyone. I mean, I have my own issues...which I told her a little about too, lol. 
So even though I have been struggling, I haven't given up over the past few months.
Even though I may not always see the changes in me, others have.
Today has inspired me to keep going stronger.
How cool is that?

And on a not so serious note...
Today's legging game:
Cthulu on my crotch.

Tuesday, 18 October 2016

Tasty Tuesday & Progress Pics

I have been lacking veggies in my diet.
I know, I know, they are key!
So, I have been finding ways to sneak more in.

I made this yesterday and made it again today.
This is what I have been eating once I get back home from the gym.
It's super flexible, and I add different veggies each time.


Some of my ground turkey cooked with salsa that I prep earlier in the week.
1 whole egg
Peppers we grilled (but sometimes I just cut up the raw too)
baby spinach that I cut up
Bragg's Nutritional Yeast

I spray my pan with olive oil spray then layer my ingredients, cracking my egg over the top.
I cover it and cook over a lower heat, checking on it every three minutes.

I like mine done so that when I put it in the bowl, I can slice into the egg and have the yolk ooze over the rest.

Another quick meal that I discovered.
I have been craving salad with something other than spinach.
Sunday, I picked up this Chopped Salad Mix by Dole.
It's the Pomegrante blend.

It contains: Pomegranate infused cranberries, flax seeds, shredded brussel sprouts, cabbage, romaine, kale, carrots, green onions & Dole Pomegranate Vinaigrette.
So, easy.
I just put some of the grilled chicken on top from food prep time.
There are 3.5 servings, but I will have the salad part devoured in three.
Then again, I don't use all of the toppings or a ton of dressing either.

I will definitely be buying these again and trying the other varieties available.

And I have finally been able to start wearing the leggings that hubs bought me last Christmas.
Remember, I told you he bought them and chose the size by looking in my drawers.
Sweet guy didn't realize I have pudgy clothes and in shape clothes.
Now, I'm not 'in shape' where I would like, but progress is progress.

I am doing my first (and more than likely only) romance/ertoica book signing convention in New Orleans next year.
I figured if one of my books is titled Ripped & Twisted, I should try to represent!

Fluff n stuff, but getting there.
Patience, right? 

Monday, 17 October 2016

I'll let you in.

I thought I would share with you.
This is definitely not a 'woe is me' post. It's more of an explanation.
Many people are not aware, but I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks, with bouts of depression.
Going into a store that was crowded would bring me to tears.
Driving a few miles on the highway had me breathing  heavy.
Probably around thirteen years ago, I actually took prescription drugs for it because my attacks were so bad.
Eventually, being me, I stopped those medications cold turkey and tried to find alternative treatments.

The best thing I ever did was get into fitness.
The years that I was pretty on track and kept my food in check, I rarely suffered the dreaded attacks.
I handled stress in a better way. In fact, I was more relaxed mentally all the way around. 

These past two years, I've not been diligent in either food nor exercise, or a vitamin we know...which has led to a renewed recurrence of these dreaded symptoms.
I have to mentally prepare to drive to the gym, the grocery, to get gas, to even go walk my garbage up to the street has me worrying if someone will pass by.
I don't even want people to look at me or acknowledge my presence.
Social anxiety.
My heart feels as though it will pound out of my chest every time my phone pings with an email from work. I do not want to be around people. I do not want to interact. I basically do not want to leave the safety of my house.
It's really a pain, however, I do not want it to escalate to the point it was so many years ago.
The past few months have really gotten better.

This may be one reason why I seem obsessed with trying to get myself back on the wagon again.
Sure, the body is awesome. I do not lie about that.
But, in all honesty, when I am healthy and fit, I feel normal.
So bear with me. I know I am going slow getting back into blogging.
I am a huge proponent of food in being medicine.
At least, it works for me.

I am also trying to remember to practice gratitude.
Focusing on the good everyday because usually my anxiety is caused by all of the fears or worries that I tend to create - what if's.

I want to worry less, embrace the present, do more of what makes me happy, spend time with those whose company I enjoy. 

And this morning, I made a yummy meal.
Tomorrow, I will make it again, take pictures and hopefully get around to posting it too!

And I realize that I am getting older. I hope to be a capable and strong woman as long as I can.
If I can't help the face, I will try to help the rest of me over how ever many years I am granted.

Happy Monday!
I am grateful for the people in my life who support me and believe in me.
I am grateful to live in a beautiful mountain area.
I am grateful to have the capability to make changes that I believe I can.

Saturday, 8 October 2016

Inspired cooking!

Hey all!
I have been a busy bee, but am proud to say that I am another 2 pounds down, 7 to go for my goal.

I have also been obsessed with cooking again...and cookbooks and recipe sites.
I have been going to the library and grabbing bunches.
Then, if one really catches my eye, I order it.
These are my two newest ones on order.
I did not necessarily go searching out Paleo books, but they caught my eye, and the recipes look amazing.

This morning I made these which are from the first cookbook by Julie Bauer.
They are Lemon Raspberry Swirl Muffins.

I found a link for you to the recipe here.

Last night I found this recipe and decided to alter it to fit more of my eating habits.
It's a Bobotie.

The top is actually an egg & milk mixture. I subbed unsweetened cashew milk for real milk.
Underneath is a lean ground beef that was cooked with a myriad of spices and flavors.
There were a few ingredients that I left out, like sugar. 

That's what so wonderful about recipes like this, you can alter them and make them healthier.
It has sooo much flavor from curry powder, tumeric, garlic!

Here is the original recipe.
My hope is to find amazing recipes, alter them, then put them here for you to try.
Right now, I'm just playing with flavors and ingredients to make them healthier.
It must be working because the weight is coming off, and I have not been killing myself in the gym, just enjoying my workouts.
Progress pic soon!

Thursday, 29 September 2016

National Coffee Day!

I didn't even know until after I had posted on Instagram and Facebook!

It's my cuppa protein coffee. 
Basically, I use my protein shake as my creamer.

And yesterday, I had on my Death Before Decaf shirt!

Showing all sorts of coffee love!

And in other news, I'm down 2 pounds since I came home from my trip.
Luckily, as I mentioned, I didn't gain any weight on that trip either.
So, here's to continued progress!

Saturday, 24 September 2016

Back to Reality.

Hi Lovies!
I have been away.
I spent the week visiting friends.
I cannot express how much fun it was, how much love and laughs were shared.
Don't you love a girlfriend that you sit up with all night chatting, sharing all of your secrets?
Or just cuddling in bed while you laugh together nonstop?
Yes, yes, we do.

And of course, we being the women we are, we spoke a TON about our health and lifestyle. We spoke about how we become complacent, age creeping up on us. And yes, we self-deprecated, then boosted each other up because, more times than not, we see the beauty in our friends before ourselves, no? Anyway, we've agreed to do a challenge with each other, even though we're apart again.
I invite you to do it with us.
I will be sharing some of the recipes we will be trying and using.
Luckily, we have the adventure and activity part going for us.
We may eat like s%*t a ton of the time, but we love to move it, move it.
This challenge we're devising is helping us get back to the eating better part - the most important part.

She shot this one of my climbing up from exploring some caves and crevices.
I was surprised at how my arms are coming along.
I will leave out the part of me being chunky because we also shopped.
We went to the most awesome vintage store. My friend found a vintage Diane von Furstenberg dress and immediately coerced me to try it on. I looked at the size...2 and immediately poo-pooed the idea. My friend was adamant. It was only after the owner came up and warned, after looking me up and down, that the dress was "very, very tiny," and shook her head at me. That sparked something in me - to go behind that curtain. Guess who owns a 'tiny, tiny,' vintage Diane von Furstenberg now?
Goes to show, we don't always see ourselves for how we may actually be...and perhaps others don't either because that owner ate her words and then doted a little on me to try the other vintage designer fashions in her store.

Of course, there was a little fun had too.
This was me tasting a vino at a winery we visited.

And another day while visiting beautiful gardens.

We loved visiting gardens.

I swear we walked ten miles a day!

And here I am back home, and pooped, LOL.
But this morning, I got up and began writing documents, recipes, meal plans, instructions.
I am missing my friend dreadfully, but it's not like we don't talk daily anyway, heehee.
Would you like to join us on our journey to getting our sexy back? 

Tuesday, 13 September 2016

What to add on?

It has been super busy in my real life.
As many who have followed a while know, I have the convenience of working from home.
And believe me I know how lucky I am, especially during winter when I do not have to try and venture out on the snowy mountain roads and commute.
This has been an unusually busy year for me.

In a way, I am grateful.
It has kept me away from social media more.
Being away from FB, Twitter, and such, has made me realize how much it drains me, and my psyche - in some areas more than others.
I mean, I do enjoy some aspects of it, but others I most definitely can do without.
Even though, parts of real life stress me out, I'm much happier with extended periods away from social media, lol. 

I want to do more here though.
I have been debating more that I could add that would possibly be of more interest: besides selfies, lol. But I do have a fabulous array of workout wear that is begging to be recorded and posted!
Hopefully, I will always keep a log of my progressions (and inevitable setbacks).

I have been debating doing some form of a cooking challenge.
Transforming recipes?
Following some cookbooks?
Maybe testing out some vegan and vegetarian ones?
Playing with some meal prep ideas?
New workouts each week?
Or a newly discovered exercise to add or switch things up?

I want to liven this place up!