Tuesday, 9 February 2016


If I told you the stories, the number of people that I have lost to medical conditions, suicide, random violent crime, being killed by a spouse or significant other, drunk drivers, cancer...I could write you one detailed and gruesome book of death, and I think you would be quite shocked at my true life happenings are stranger than fiction.
Let me tell you what is bringing this thought about.
Yesterday, yet another friend of mine from back home lost his beautiful wife.
They have three children.
Their world, of course, has stopped.
One day a whole family unit, the next all that they know crumbling around them.
My heart breaks for them, and of course, you begin to recall all of the fun times that you had with that person.

One, it makes me stop and think that life is just one big game of Russian Roulette.
At any moment, boom, it's your turn.
As I stop and think of all of my friends and family over the years, even in high school where we lost a classmate or two to their own hands, I find myself incredibly lucky to still be standing.
Then, I think, "Seriously, what's to say that I'm not the next to go down?"

It's very morbid, however, it makes me want to grasp any and every opportunity to live, love, and laugh, hug, and truly let all of those fights, annoyances, and stupid happenings go.
It is times like these that remind us to not just exist, but to truly live this life we are given.
You never know when your turn is up.

Friday, 5 February 2016

Tennis Elbow? I don't even play tennis.

I am suffering with a wicked case of tendinitis, tennis elbow.
Last year, I had it in my left arm.
This past week, my right one decided to take a turn.
And just for fun, I burned the heck out of my right hand loading up the woodstove too.
My right side hates me this week, so I am trying to show it a little love and lighten up on it.

I have changed my exercises at the moment, obviously I cannot lift a ton or properly with my upper body at the moment.
I can always use a switch up anyway.
I have been doing body weight circuits and focusing more on getting my heart rate up and my lower body. Both could always use it anyway.
I have been adding 100 body squats daily too.
It's easy enough to pop out.
Hell, I do 100 reps pretty much every leg day with bar and a few small plates.

For instance, today part of my workout was:

50 jumping jacks
50 Knee Highs
50 Skaters
Repeat  the circuit 3x

Spidermans (30)
Mountain Climbers (30)

Body Squats (100)
[Attempted] Single Leg Body Squats (13 each leg) - I suck at these and need to work on my form and balance for sure.

Let's hope all of this extra helps make the booty pop more. 

In the meantime, it's stretches, icing, etc. for the old elbow.

I am so freaking happy that next week we may make it into the 40's and 50's.
Sure we still have about a foot of frozen snow in the yard, but 40's and 50's?!
It's practically a heat wave!
You have no idea!
Hey, this is exciting, especially since it was -12 degrees yesterday until about eleven am.
So, naturally, I have been lusting after swimwear.
And I am going to try and scrape the six inches of snow off of the back deck.
Maybe we'll try and grill this weekend.
I know, I know, we're nuts!

Wednesday, 3 February 2016

Good Life

I make no qualms in that I have a good life.
I get to work from my home.
I get the leisure of working on side projects that I enjoy.
I get the perks of a super flexible schedule which enables me to do large batches of cooking, go to the gym, play with diy and gardening.
I normally maintain a predominantly positive attitude and am overall, happy.

But let's face it, shit happens.
Most of the time, I can let things just roll off.
Then there are those other times.
It is completely odd the instances that will send me into a tailspin or set me off.
Usually it is something really stupid and minuscule.
So, I apologize for throwing my tantrum.

Even at my age, I have my moments where I forget that only I can control my happiness, and other peoples' opinions should not affect that.
Life goes on, and it's always cyclical, ups and downs, right?
I have to learn to surf those waves with more skill and grace.
What can I say? I am only human.

Speaking of waves and surfing, which I will never attempt because, well, Sharks!
I have been perusing bikinis.
If I reach my goal by my birthday, which is in May, I want to reward myself with something like this beauty.

Maybe over the weekend I will try to upload some new body shots, though I don't see that much progress yet.

Monday, 18 January 2016

I give.

Truly, all I wanted to do was help, give, maybe give a little inspiration.
I know I'm not perfect.
I know I'm not a great body type.
I thought I had developed a thick skin over the years.
But, I haven't.
So, I am taking a break.
Messages are harsh. People are harsh.
I've come to realize that typing here doesn't help anything lately.
So, I am going to step away.
I will just do me.
Without the 'chirp chirp' or whatever.
Maybe I'm just not meant for social media anymore.
Laters taters.

Saturday, 16 January 2016

I have no delusions of what I look like.
Believe me, I have never, ever thought I was any kind of beauty.
But hey, my husband tells me he thinks I'm pretty, and that's all I ask for.
However, I try to play myself up a bit  when we leave the house.

And the inevitable is happening...
Partially, okay more than partially, it's my fault.
I have never really had any sort of skin care regimen. I wash my face with the pump hand soap. I have only just begun using a face cream. I don't drink enough water.
The list goes on and on.
So, I'm going to try and do some maintenance.
Of course, I read all of these articles about lemon juice or baking soda or tumeric masks.
I'm willing to give them a whirl, especially since I always have all of these ingredients in my house.
I at least want a couple of more years until my face begins melting from my skull.

But even then, I will still rock my freaking lipstick.

Wednesday, 13 January 2016

Protein Overnight Oats: Lemon Blueberry Chocolate

Sometimes, I want something a little different than my eggs and oats.
Sometimes, I have to run out the door in the morning and don't have time to cook.
Overnight protein oats are perfect!

1/2 cup old fashioned oats
1/4 cup blueberries
1 container of Osage Greek Yogurt
1 scoop chocolate protein powder
1 tsp cinnamon
1 packet Stevia in the Raw
Juice of 1 small meyer lemon
About 1/3 cup of unsweetened vanilla almond milk (You can also use water)

Mix it all together.
Put it in the fridge.
In the morning, pull it out and enjoy or throw a lid on it and go!

Tuesday, 12 January 2016

Workout Journals and It's Freaking Frigid!

I wanted to give you a little sample of my workout log. If I'm not in training or under coach's guidance, I like to keep track of my workouts. This year, I'm using my daily planner. I'm using the monthly calendar at the beginning of each month to actually mark my appointments, and these pages to log my workouts, inspirational quotes, and other little notes.
It's a fun idea to keep you on track and motivated.

In other news, I think you can tell by my face in the picture this morning at the gym that I am just about tired of this below zero stuff in the mornings. This is the first year that I EVER remember having to wear sweatshirts and jackets DURING my workouts. It's flippin' frigid!!

As you can see, I am a hot mess. I didn't do my hair, any sort of anything. I'm lucky I got my arse out of the warm house and the seven miles uphill to the gym.
Yes, I am ready for a little warm for sure.

~*~Side Note~*~
I like to keep this blog separate from my writing blog.
However, I will let you know that I have posted the first three chapters from my last two books there.
Warning: They are smutty, filled with oodles of kink and adult situations, but if you'd like to peek: